Fields Of Hope

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2011-07-03T12:36:00.004+08:00

Hey guys,

it's been a long long time since i've updated this blog.
LOOOONNNNNNNNGGGGGGGGGG time indeed.

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2011-01-24T18:20:00.001+08:00

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Happy Chinese New Year People ^^

Vintage... i just loved the colour

2011-01-24T17:54:00.003+08:00

Gonna be busy with the big shift soon...
probably this is what you get when you do not have a men in the house hahaha ><

it's ok... i'm kindda use to it already. for a men who left his family for his friends... how manly and cool could he have been in front of his friends.

i mean... there is not failure in life... but do you call sons who do not care about their parents a failure?? thinking that some one else will do the filial job is the best thing you MEN can do is it??

come on... not funny at all ok. zzzz NVM!!

i shall not think about it now... life has so much more things to think about then "Him" or "Them"

All i want now is to be sucessuful. FOCUS ON MY OUTCOME!!! YEAH !!

ok i have no idea what is all these gonna do with vintage hahaha and now.. the PICTURES!!! Woo~~

just love the soft tone and light feeling it gives just by looking at them. lol...

The pictures have more to say then me XD

Imagination

2010-11-28T12:45:00.000+08:00

how i wish i could fly.....

Tengible assets... beautiful ones...

2010-11-25T11:47:00.004+08:00

No Failure but learning experience,..

2010-11-24T09:35:00.003+08:00

Finally results are out... the most exciting moment... is it??

Some times i wonder, have i put my expectations to high that i could not achieve them. I know, goals should be set realistically. But... i really don't understand, the world is fair.. right? looking back, i really do not know what have i been doing. Choosing to play rather than study. Choosing to turn a death ear when the lecturer is teaching. Choosing to tell me self that the subject was a difficult one. Right! i admit it. It was purely my fault.

People say hard work does pay of. Well, though this experience i learn that the world does not function this way. I could see the most hardworking person... crying over results that they did not expect, on the other side i see people who studies last minute and was happily getting great results.

Ok never mind with the results... all i wanted is a full scholarship. Argh.... SCHOLARSHIP!!!

So i ask my self, where have a done wrong... ok... not done wrong, rather i should ask, what have i learn?? i learn that i should leave the past as it is.. look forward.. and.... life is never fair... *sometimes it is**confusing much ~_~*

I shall not let you affect me... rawr !! I'll KILL YOU!! you wait...

oops... 10 am d.... FIN CLASS *YAY*

gtg... brb ^^

~~ A BRIGHTER FUTURE ~~

A place where i truly belong

2010-11-17T13:14:00.002+08:00

~~~ and it's here ^^

updates.... ^^ after 4 long months

2010-11-13T17:29:00.004+08:00

My God.. look how time flies... it's been 4 months since i updated my blog. >

hm... classes starting soon and i've been pondering what subjects to take for the coming sem.
Jeezz... it's a decision that i've spend sleepless nights thinking about.. hahaha probably 1 sleepless night =P

It's only a month and get to think about it i've done nothing for the next coming sem.
Well, this holiday has been thrilling.... heartbreaking.... happening and what more having the best days of my life.

And here... i would wanna confess... to someone... to many ones who were there beside me, when i needed them most.

First... Kok weng ; who initiated and motivate me for my scholar interviews.....helping me wit my studies and showing me where to get RM1 medical treatment ^^ Joey; who showed care yes... motivating for me to hang on to the things i believe that for once i lost it ^^... Hm..... Ms parames.. *i know she'll never know this* but you were to one who help push in my resume hahaha... i still remember when she told me the result of my application along the hall way but i was so blur that i couldn't get what she was telling me.

actually... there are many countless things you guys have helped and done for me and i didn't write them down BUT.... i assure you... that although i didnt mention them here... they will always.. always be here..... in my heart. ^^

I'll think of them before i sleep.... everyday... and doze of with a smile in my face hehehe

oh Hey, It's Autumn... the lingering scent of Christmas is tingling in my nose oo oo .... presents?? mouth watering feast ?? excitement of opening gifts.??? hm....

May i wish an early christmas??? ^^

GANBATE GANBATE !!!!

2 other hwang dbs scholar

What am i doing???!!!!

2010-06-24T09:44:00.004+08:00

Siew Kuan !!! Wake up Wake up !! *slaps slaps*

Wonderland kah???

ZZZZZ

Look at you !!! tsk tsk...

No No no no no.... i shall not continue like this... Ganbate !!!! Fight fight fight !!!

feeling HOT

2010-06-16T09:48:00.003+08:00

Hot Hot.. and yes.... HOT!!!

I don't know but the whether here is like oven hot...

Phew... can't really sleep at night. And what just made it wost is that i start to sleep talk zzzz

God!! when is this gonna change?? >

ICE CREAM ICE CREAM !!!! I NEED THEM

GIVE ME THAT KID !!! lol ^^

oh yes yes...

zzzz Be Pa..Ti..EN..T......

Let's get cracka lakin

2010-05-29T16:08:00.003+08:00

College starting soon !!!! Everyone ready??!!
Before i start another chapter let me review what i have done for this holiday.

1. I made some necklaces
2. Went to the hospital (nearly fainted AGAIN) T_T
3. Planted 2 pineapple trees
4. Worked in a marketing department
5. Went for a badminton competition (Hey we won tow games) lol
6. Went to college for Orientation
7. Celebrated Cheng Lee's birthday (an early one)
8. Learn how to make up
9. Conducted several surveys
10. Went to the gym (and hurt my self =P)
11. Cut my hair
12. Watched IP MAN
13. Made black pepper chicken
14. Brushed up my violin skills
15. Wore a 4 inched heels to work

It seems that i've done so little... zzzz i want more.. MORE!!!!
Actually i've missed out so many things... Especially.. Cookie and Kim, I'm so sorry that i could not join you guys for that long time planned movie marathon.

All i need now is rest i guess...

Any way, here are some of the packaging and advertisement ideas when i was looking though that day

Cookie in Cookie out Cookie in and out

2010-05-24T20:41:00.003+08:00

Please tell me that i have gone down... have been eating quite a lot lately. *guilty*
Testing all samples and drinks *GASPS* why can't i be testing cloths instead?? sobss...

Was going through with some sample pictures for a new product and i found THESE... *jumps jumps* aren't they ADORABLE????

LADIES AND GENTLEMAN... i now present you.... THE COOKIE CREW ~~~ *clap clap*

siew kuan~~~~ exercise..... SIEW KUAN.... EXERCISE!!!!!! *snores* zzzzzzzzz =P

Have a nice day people ^^ college starting soon WOOHOO~~~

Medicine=Pride or Save lives??????

2010-05-22T20:15:00.004+08:00

MY blog my blog my dear dear blog...

It's been some time since i gave you a refreshing update... hahaha

How are your holidays going people?? Good *thumbs up* GREAT!!!

As for me i've been really really packed with working and visiting my aunt at the hospital.

To my great great friends.. *huggs* thank you soo.... much for the comfort ^^ thinking positive, YEAH !!

Since my uncle could not cope with the rising fees in the private hospital they've moved her to a general hospital. ok, so general hospital means more nurses and doctors around right?? As i step into the ward, it just remind me of some horror movie or something *thrumbling*

Nurses everywhere, patients with worried family and friends all around.

Finally me and my mom finally found my aunt, she looks healthy minus the beeping machines and tubed attached to her throat.. i was glad... ^^ beside her was an old lady and nurses busy doing some thing.. As usual, the curious me *even though i know that i'll faint when i see blood*=P manage to peek into a gap. And to my dismay the nurses were slapping and calling out loud "OOI !!! APA NAMA!!"*slaps cheeks* Calling over and over again the old lady just close her eyes and rubs her cheeks....

Ok, i do understand that sometimes they do that to wake the patient up but... slapping on the face?? THAAAATT HARD?????? hm.... IF YOU GUYS EVER DO THHAAAAT TO MY AUNT?? I'LL.. I'LL....

I just looked away with a heavy heart and continue talking to my aunt. And all of a sudden the machine rang with the "WARNING" sign... we were like... huh?? what happen??? *PANICKING HERE... HELLO???* and the nurses were like facing us with their big GLUTEOUS MAXIMUS... HOW DARE YOU??? Finally we got hold of one and she was like "Oh, that ah, usually we will check that breathing machine of it rings" I was like, WHUATTT ?? You guys didn't even bother looking at the machine when it rang ok... zzzzz

*Relax relax*... *breath*

To all medical students.. i know you guys will face with lots of stress. BUT, Remember to treat patients with your Heart ^^ *GANBATE*!!!

I just pray that my aunt wakes up faster...

Save earth.. Save me too lol

2010-04-25T12:06:00.002+08:00

I'm so not sure when i'll be able to update my precious blog..

So i would really wanna update all that i can now hahaha compensate for the future.
Hey guys, lets start saving the earth. Lately i've been always bathing in my own sweat. Temperature rising and it's still gonna increase.

Save Mother earth !!!
I went to the pasar malam that day and i noticed that plastic cups that we usually get our irresistible cold drink, ya that? I timed and you know what, i only took like less than 30 mins to finish my drink and there it goes to the rubbish bin. I felt to bad throwing that earth hazardous thingy into the dust bin zzzz even the plastic bag that we use to put our stuff in. I think that would last for like 2 hours and then again in to the dust bin too. I must admit, I am the cause to the increase in global warming too. Well you would then say, why not keep that plastic bag? But hey lets be honest. How many of us do keep those pasar malam bags and then reuse them in the future. No doubt there are lots of plastic bags that i kept in my room but there are all the pretty pretty nice plastic bags right? Body glove? I don't know, Padini too? =P ok, me guilty too

So ya, Save the earth now..

....EARTH DAY everyday

Use less plastic people ^^

Time flies

2010-04-23T20:05:00.002+08:00

Finally ma 3rd sem just ended... and thinking about it, i didn't really do much this sem.
Works' gonna start on Monday and ends on the 1st day of my 4th sem.

I forgot how to relax d. What is relax?? zzzz Chillex? lol
I sometimes even forgot how to smile. It's not difficult to smile actually, it makes and world a better place.. noh siew kuan???

Was a bit disappointed in myself for not able to control my OWN actions. Forgive me if i've done something that hurt you... Gomenasai *me still kid you no* hahaha jk jk

Hmm.... This sem break, i would really wanna spend some time improving my CRAFTS... Gonna be making some BIG pendants *if you have seen me wearing it to college before* So, If any one of you would like to have one... Can just text me or something... i'll do my best to make it. Quality not guaranteed ah.. ^^

Till then... To all my batch mates and my close friends....

Happy Holidays Everyone

Have a great time either spending with your loves ones, doggies, doing all your favorite stuff and guess some of you will be spending lots of time with your darling bed hahaha
Take care ^^

Oh Ya.. and Remember to SMILE

Life is full of choices

2010-04-21T10:52:00.006+08:00

Life is Full of choices

Why Worry so much when you can enjoy life as it is?? hehehe

Well, some time i know i just feel like slapping myself for the foolish things that i have done..

hmhmhm..... but
I'm not gonna be so naive any more...
I'm gonna do what ever i dream of doing *ahem* not that....
Make ever second counts.....
Fight till the end!!!!! *ganasnya~~* Lolx

ha~~~ I love life

I love my family....
ღ♡ღ♡ I love my friends...
ღღ♡♡ღ♡ I love studies...
ღ♥♥♥♥♥♡ღ♡ I love... love... ^^
♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♡ღ♡ I love accounts.... =P
♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥ღ♡ I love accounts...
ღ♡♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♡ღ♡ღ♡I love accounts....
♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥ღ♡ღ♡I love accounts...?? zzzz
♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♡ღ♡ღ♡Yes I LOVE ACCOUNTS!!!
ღ♥♥♥♥♥ღღ♡ღ♡I love my doggies...
ღ♡ღ♡ღ♡ღ♡I love food...
ღ♡ღ♡ღ♡I love Jacob...
ღ♡ღ♡I love pretty things...
ღ♡I love music...
I love ......
I love everyting...

I love all the wonderful wonderful things all the wonderful people around me

Thank you for everything and everything

Ready.. Get set.. GO!!

2010-03-28T19:38:00.005+08:00

Today i learn that NOTHING is free in the world, even a cert >Went for Threkathon today at Bukit Gasing. Mhm... as the name has state it's a "BUKTI". I was so stupid to believe the department people who told me that the run was along the road side zzzzz

Ahahaha XD
I woke up at 5.30 today and i was practically walking like a zombie to the toilet. Change and ate a super express breakfast *maggie* then out to get a monorail to KL central. Reached the last stop at 6.40 and was hessitating to walk to the main station for the bus or stay where i came down from the monorail. zzzz I ran accross half the street then ran back to the monorail station. Then i ran arcoss the streen agin *I must have looked like some idiot there* =P hahaha and on the way there, i was praying hard that the bus dont pass by coz there are no bus stops along the road and OH MY GOD when i was almost there the bus just went FUEEWWW~~~ i ran and ran and luckly it stopped at the newspaper stand. THANK GOD

Took a minute to catch my breath and said "puh.. pu..sat... ban *phanting*dar.. Dah man... sara..."
Well at least i got my warm up haha

ok la, So reached my college ngam ngam 7.05 am.. and the school bus to Bukit Gasing took off at 7.45 *the stated time was suppose to be 7.15, Malaysian timing*

Then run actually started at 9++ i guess *Malaysian timing again* .Before the run actually started i was so tired from waiting d zzzzzz

mhm... the time had finally came and everyone was so excited to run. I was naive to think that this 1.5 km is gonna be a short relax run.... and at the blow of the speaker, everyone CHARGE!! The staring was nice where we have the down slope, and what goes down has to come up right. The climbing was ok at first. *Yeah!! full spirit* then came another steep hill, *Yeah!! not bad, i think i can do this* and then... cross the river *wohoo~~* THEN... The last mountain *oh no... i wanna end this now T_T* practically climbing like some dog at the end d...
Finally,

... I SEE THE FINISH LINE!!!!

hahaha ok ok.. i know i'm fat, at least i finished the whole journey right ^^ *pats on the back* Not bad ma.. still standing *for a while* and food yum yum *there goes my weight* ya, so we went through all this just for a cert.

It's ok, next year i'll definitely go for another one XD till then... ja-ne

Business Department group photo

Cuppy cakes

2010-03-19T02:38:00.002+08:00

I dont know what got into me but i'm so craving for a cupcake

Er.... Guess i'll stick to ice cream ^^ *slurps*

Colour

2010-03-13T17:43:00.004+08:00

Little girl and her father were crossing a bridge.
The father was kind of scared so he ask his little daughter,
'sweetheart, please hold my hand so that you don't fall into the river'.
The little girl said, 'No dad. You hold my hand'.
'What is the difference?' Ask the puzzled father.
'There's a big difference', replied the little girl.

'If I hold your hand and something happens to me,
chances are that I may let your hand go.
But if you hold my hand, I know for sure that no matter what happens,
you will never let my hand go'.

Chu Beng !!! it's not funny....

2010-03-12T16:34:00.004+08:00

It's been some time since i've updated this poor blog.
Awe... *sayang sayang*
Just came back from Quiz.. waited like 40 mins for the bus to come coz it's Friday, got roasted under the bus stop, we~~

Ok, so Quiz gave me a shock today, made me shake from the start till the end. Not to mention i can't even hold my pen properly..... zzz Well, our dear dear chu beng gave us wonderful questions, he was so thoughtful that students will be able to learn more by setting extra "out of the text book" questions that even if you have studied the text book you'll have problem answering it.

I just feel like doing this

I guess he warned us about it before the quiz started, if i'm not mistaken he did say that "hey guys, make sure you put away all your notes, textbooks and LET ME DO THE TORTURING" *wicked smile*i was like......

God!!! I pray that this paper would be as good as i think from the start of the semester.

*think positive think positive siew kuan... *

Feelings

2010-01-18T18:57:00.003+08:00

Munching my favorite famous amous cookies, i felt the sweetness on my tougue and it melts thought my throat. ha~~~ how nice. For that someone out there.. Thank you very much for the cookies....

My 3rd sem just started and what i really hope is that i could just keep my results up to par.

It's been a long and tiring holiday and suddenly when you wanna get your self started up with the new semester? You really gotta put in lotsa effort.

Without you knowing it, time just passes by so quickly and i'm missing lotsa my favorite past time. I no longer do crafts, nor cooking, or getting fascinated with the pictures i found on the web. I wonder why...

I'm dong my best actually to keep my self occupied so i won't be thinking about things that i Never wanna recall. But as i click into Blogger, my fingers just type things that i have never thought about bringing up AGAIN. I hate myself for being weak. When can i actually grow up? When can i take control of my feeling and my actions? *such a naive gal*

Stop this please.... i don't wanna be insane. I've been having restless nights. Just feel like stabbing myself with a knife.

I'm back !!!!

2009-12-10T23:01:00.004+08:00

When for a 4days camp in Pulau Pangkor and now i'm BACK !!! muahahahaha

Well it was really fun, since it's a free program supported by the government to promote 1 Malaysia. But the thing is that how can you promote 1 Malaysia when the participants in the camp are 90% Malays 10%, Chinese and 0% Indians.

Any way, the camp was unexpected. My friend called me when i was at the Book Sale. And thanx to him i lost my mood looking at books d. hahaha He promised that the camp was like a resort thingy like a trip.
And to tell you the truth if i knew that it was just a trip then i'll not go. Luckly it turn out like what i've thought it is. A "Malaysian" grade adventure camp

SO,
1st Day,
We meet up at HELP main block with our OVERLY packed bags. XD As usual Malaysian timing, we agreed that we meet up at 7.30 and took off 8.15 zzz.... So "early"

Then we reach Perak Port at 11 i think and the driver was driving like 120km/h. Like flying man ~~ !!! but still we were late hahaha

Next, as we were getting ready to board the ferri we were given BIG plastic bags. I was like "Wat's that for" .Only i knew that we were suppose to put our bags into the plastic bags coz we are gonna swim to the island WITH OUR BAGS ON??!!!... Stupid people T_T

Any way it was not that bad la. We didn't swim to the island, we just have to walk in knee length level water as there is no port for the ferri. Next, it was LUNCH time yippy ^^ after moving all our luggage's into the so call main camp, we were then served with food, yum yum. The plate of rice seem so mouth watering as it moves closer towards my hands. Finally, we can eat. So the Malays will then begin their doa and then the facilitator called out. "LETS EAT". We HELP students were looking at each other, like silly monkeys, "are we like gonna eat with our dirty hands?? " Ew~~~ They dont even have pipes for us to wash our hands le.

And for the first time MC Donald came to the rescue, i purposely *ahem* "steel" some spoons form MC D when i had breakfast that day so yeah, we got spoons *jumps jumps*

The worst has yet to come when i went and check out the toilet. Guess what, no proper toilet, i dont think that hole on the floor can even be considered as a toilet. *slaps on head* cham lor ~ no toilet never mind, place for bathing also tak ada. We were suppose to bring our own "sarong" so we can wrap our bodies and take bath, so saya macam mana?? take bath naked is it? sob sob NO~~~~~

Let's forget about the toilets k XD so the next thing is setting up our tents, gals get to stay in a dome shaped camp which, has more space than the ordinary camps. *luckly i'm not a guy*
Well, time really flies when your having fun. I really love thins kind of camp although it's kindda you know, low grade. At least i get to camp beside the beach.

And so, 1st day ends with many mosquito bites and a smelly body. No way i'm gonna take bath naked in front of people le.

Day 1 ends~~~ to be continued~~~~ stay tune to more exciting and funny stories ahahaha

break..... restart ...... break down

2009-12-02T08:16:00.005+08:00

we~~~

There goes finals and the two subjects that i don't even think i know what I've studies ==!!
Gonna rest for today and tomorrow.... restarting my engine and preparing for work. aha aha
Should i be happy?? aha aha Well i think it's quite... "fun" to be busy. Especially my character that my mom describes as a "wild horse"
Well it's true that i can't stand staying at home looking at four walls for like 1 MONTH !!! I'll grow older faster hahaha

Hm...so it's after exam mood just for now. Tomorrow i'll be having a "when is the manager giving me assignments to do" mood =P Yesterday was fun, have not ever go out gai gai in a big group of friends before and we were crazy taking pictures. Ha~~~ memories. I wonder when will be the next time.

*listening to Omoi wo Oitekite* really soothing music. So! my next task. To play this on an electone with my brothers hehehe

Strategy:
Listen with heart and follow the beat as the tunes of the lovely notes perform thier true colours. The piano is such a wonderful instrument that goes wonderfully well with the strings. Like a lovely couple dancing togother on a dance floor with the dim lights. Swaying with slow steps like the night is never ending XD *wake up wake up* still dreaming hahaha

Deadline:
Hm... Difficult to say especially with the electone now here in KL. Probably..... by 31 December 2009 ^^ should be able to do it gua

*rubs hands together with a wicked smile on face* With my brilliant plan *actually there is no plan* XD i believe it'll turn out well ^^

************************** HUGGS*************************************

Finally it's over

2009-11-07T14:39:00.002+08:00

Phew... only two subjects and it's killin me zzz
OMG .... when i start thinking about it.. Finals are really near d. Three more weeks and music exam is two weeks away. GOD!!!

Any way, this morning before the exam. well, i heard some bad news from my friend. Haiz... Hope he's ok now la. Cheer up cheer up ^^ Jiu de bu zhou, xin de bu lai right??

Guess where am i now?? In KFC ^^ zzzz So difficult to get WIFI over here... zzzz like treasure hunting ni

Just because i want to send an e mail to Kok Chern i gotta drive my car out while pressing the refresh buttom on my computer to look for signal hahaha

But..... Thats not the only reason la hahahaha
i can also... FACEBOOK and MSN lor

Luckly i got my new laptop. The old one will only last me about 5 minutes. Which is adequate to send an e mail, and a ready typed one.

The weather here is soooo HOT le.... zzzzz *MELTING!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!*

Guys... Remember to drink lots of water ya.

gtg now d.... cheers ^^

...melting away...

Back to the office

2009-10-16T21:43:00.002+08:00

Went back to LENO today to have a vegetarian lunch with my work mates wee~~~ vegetarian is healthy and and and.... can slim down also hahaha Thanks to Joey i was able to reach there without sweat and most important IN TIME. Thank you Joey ^^

So today's special was 'petai sambal' mm.... yum yum, they also have fish and to fu.
Then Angie also brought her Home made pudding. *salivating d* hehehe

While enjoying our meal Mr. Lee also brought his all time favorite Britney Spears's concert DVD zzz He says she's sexy and to tell you the truth, she really is... Wa... What a sexy body she has... How i wish *slaps* Wake up Wake up

The first thing every body asked me when they saw me was " Hey!!!!" followed with a shocking expression" When are you coming back?" zzzz I just stopped working 1 week ago la.

Time really flies when you are having fun. With a blink of an eye, there goes 1 hour of lunch break time. And as i was leaving the pantry, all the HOD's just finished their meetings and moving for thier lunch... tsk tsk pity them la. Having lunch AFTER lunch time.

What to do, sacrifices have to be made to earn that amount of money they are having now.

zzzz stomach ache AGAIN *ouch* T_T
P.s: Not Because of the food la

*Crawls back to the bed*

Stress + Depressed - Happiness= Suicide

2009-10-13T08:52:00.005+08:00

AH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

That's all i can describe the situation I'm ALWAYS in.
Is there something wrong with me? The things i attract? Or am i "faited" to live a life like this?

GOD! How many times do i have to go through this? I can't take this any more. Letting this ruin my day? Again and Again.
All i want to do now is give up. But i don't want that to happen. Why me?? Why me?

*crying won't help at all* I don't want to be a crying baby. Not this time. Not ever
I don't want to be the person full of problems that cannot be solved. I just want to live a happy life. Is that too much to ask for? Fine~~~ I'll give up everything ~~~~

*What am i thinking*What am i thinking*What am i thinking*
I dont know la

*Jumps down 10th floor*

Hope is the thing with feathers?????

2009-09-19T22:27:00.008+08:00

I'm so tired with all your excuses. So tired of telling myself that you are not what you seem to be now. It's so fake, when you called me and asked if i have enough allowance to sustain myself. You've told me thousand and one times that you will do your part as a parent to support me... but i have given up on you for you have really disappointed me this time. I do not need you any more. I'll work even if i have to work till i drop dead just to support myself, I'll still not beg you for your support.

I gave my trust on you, I told mom that you were not like that and see what is the result you have produced? Chinese New Year is next year and you've already told me that you will not be able to come back. Not even to see YOUR children?? Any way,even if you come back it doesn't make any difference any more coz all you did when you came back was sleep and then??? Back to work...... Go ahead and earn your BIG BUCKS. Tell your BOSS how loyal are you to the company that you have to sacrifice your time spend with your family for work.

Stupid excuses.... You just made me discriminate all MEN in the world that they are like you. It's so hard for me to actually put my trust on men. I've TRIED, but all ends up the same where I'll cry silently for i cannot bring myself to trust anyone.

As for now i could only thank you for bringing me into this world. For making me a stronger person coz you were not there when i needed you most. For making me a more independent person because you never cared. Despite all these, I'll still love you no matter what happens. Love you !!

*sorry guys, no other place to let out than the blog XD*

Working like a machine

2009-09-18T23:22:00.014+08:00

One day i got a call from LENO marketing and guess what??
I finally got my self a job in the office. As a..... hm..... not really sure. XD

And they told me to start work right after the day they call me zzz I was so NOT ready for this le...

Any way, Opportunity wor..... take lor

So the next day i arrived to this HUGE HUGE company... *looks more like a factory to me* and i was required to go through an interview. And it went well, so i started work on that day it self.

The cool thing about this is that i get to have a place all by my self.. we~~~ and the first "GIFT" i received from them was..... 209 VIRUSES in my computer zzzz *Thanxzzzz a Lot* then they gave me my tag. Quite cool coz they do not use the "OLD FASHION" way of clocking in where you have your punch card. All you have to do is just wave your tag near a reader and it automatic keys in your attendance... Denise is that RFID??? i think so. hehehe

So my first assignment was to write some introduction about the company in three languages to post it in the magazine.... The English part was the easiest and then here comes the Chinese part *FYI i just got a pass for my SPM Chinese* So what i did was..... COPY and PASTE it in "GOOGLE translator", smart right *perasan betul la XD* And the result was banana Chinese language. Haiz... so i have to crack my brain and start searching for Chinese articles in Google. Let's forgot about it, shall we??

Oh ya, before that, i was brief on my job function... actually I'm still blur about it coz I'm actually the assistant general manager's secretary but I'm also under the Human Resource department. So means I'm under management and HR Department???

Being the secretary of the assistant general manager mean you have to babysit the manager- co-ordinate all her meetings, remind her on meeting and appointment, schedule her time, filter her calls and what i like most is.... doing analysis on the project proposal of all departments... wahahaha....

Time really flies when your doing your work.. it's like you've just sat down not to long ago and now it's lunch time. And before you know it it's 6.15 *balik kampung* but i have never get to go back at that time coz i cannot finish my work T_T sob sob.... inexperience ma... typing also slow la.....

Well, one thing i dont like about working in the office is politics... you can actually see people "buttering" their superior just to get promoted. And they'll get extra sensitive when they see you having a good time with the top people. Tsk Tsk.... Just do your work la, waste so much time thinking of how to talk bad about people. I'm not sure how long can i actually tahan this... *Breath*

Any way i'm still a part time worker there, so all i have to put my 100% in doing my job. Ganbate!!!!

see see.. this is my tag

And here's my work station *sorry a bit messy hahahaha*

Hey, it's suppose to be my holiday...Any way it's just 1 month then back to studying again
As for now i wanna sleep... Tomorrow meeting up wit someone ^^

P.S: My leg hurts like hell coz i have to wear high heels to work.. sob sob.. skin also came out

*Beep... work out*

Being the Chef

2009-09-14T09:48:00.004+08:00

Yesterday i made Soba since i've promised my brothers that i'll prepare is one day. Looking at the cheefss cooking in Sushi Tei looks easy but when you really do it.. er.. hahah i can't even make the tempura look like one.. More like Fry Vegetables T_T

I always wanna learn how to cook But.. I'm so afraid of the burning oil XD.... My brothers were like laughing at me jumping around while frying the tempura ==!!! So embarrassing. Well you can't blame me le... I got BURN wo~~~ sob sob

Then here comes the funny part, the noodles.. erm..i think i'm suppose to put the noodle ont he ice but instead i just pour the whole bag of ice on it and it look like erm.... noodles in ice water... i't suppose to be the same right??? It's cold noodles ma =P I really pity mu future husband la hahahah

Any way, I still manage to make something ALMOST similar to what i saw in Sushi Tei... hahahaha... ALMOST~~~~

And here's the result

Not Bad right.... zzzz... i think in the future i'll have the maid do the cooking la hahahaha

I shall give you my heart

2009-08-28T15:51:00.002+08:00

There is no better way to start,
than to give you my heart.
and begin everlasting peace.

so let me hand it over,
as lucky as a four leaf clover.
take it already, sheesh.

i said that i loved you
and I meant what i said
ill love you forever,
even after were dead.

you showed me how to love
and it isn't that bad.
i was hurt so badly,
i was always sad.

he hurt me worse,
than you ever could.
even if you could
i don't think you would.

could you see the tears,
running down my cheeks?
each one a confession
of defeat.

I love you so much.
you have no clue.
when i was without you,
i was always blue.

you have made me laugh,
you have made me cry,
but ill love you forever,
even after we die

Working in sunway

2009-08-17T17:11:00.004+08:00

That day i received a call from Webster and he offered me a job at sunway ^^ YIPPY!!!
Well, my job scope is just easy... Give out flyers, promote IAG; SK and also ADAM KHOO's books.

The funny part is that i don't have transport there and we are suppose to meet and the convention center at 7.45a.m... crazy le... some more i gotta find where is the convention center.. zzz Quinnie told me to walk THROUGH the car park *hello... it's 7 in the morning and ME?? ALONE?? CAR PARK??* *knock knock on the head* Are you having a fever??* =P
And in ALKTG they practice a saying that "IF I CAN'T THEN I MUST"

Must then must lor *pity me betul* XD

So i woke up at 5 in the morning *FYI i slept at 12 yesterday le*... took a Chillllllinnnn bath and on my way to China Town *alone... With a BIG umbrella... just in case XD* Even the bus drive ask me where am i going so early zzz

ok forget about it hehehe

Then i finally reached Sunway at around ~~ 7.05~~ soooooo early and scary
SO i took a walk in the NO SHOPS OPENED YET MALL .... and supprisingly everything was so dead and quite expect the ice skating ring.... There were people having skating classes..
HM..... how i wish that i could skate like them, probably i'll look like a pack of potatoes =P

Anyway, time really flies when your having fun, before i even know it, it was 7.45 d..
So i went up to the convention hall and found our booth just in front of the main door ~~ wow first class~~
And the we set up the booth with posters

And of course .... we lay the books on the table

And beside our booth was this kids program thing going on... and they were giving out balloons.
So.... *of course i didn't go ahead and ask for one* but they were kind enough to let me try to make one =P coz i was like staring in a amaze of how they make balloons in to animals and different shapes....

See see, this one was made by tian jun... hahahaha... mine one... er..... i gave it to a kid d coz he was so cute xD

Then thing went on till 4.... i thought it's gonna be like 6 or some thing so i took a bus *with that funny looking balloon dog with me* back home

P.s.: I SAW ADAM KHOO!!!!!! jumps jumps jumps

*yawn*
^^

Dear Santa

2009-08-14T17:12:00.003+08:00

I know Christmas is still far far away... but i have this urge to send him an early request... ^^

My exams are in November and now i have to practice like hell coz i've missed out so much...
I'm so stressed up when i start thinking about it...
Since i dont have an electone at home *or rather having an ancient electone* ==!! i now have to travel all around just to find a center that rents electone for practice...

Last i week i just went up to the Yamaha website for the list of Yamaha franchise around Selengor area... Well the results were quite pleasing until i tried calling each and every one of them.... Not every center has this service... so sad le... *rational poeple think at the margin* that's what we learn in Economics but it looks like MOST of them are not rational enough =P And finally i found one at Pelangi plaza, *thank GOD* happy yet not so happy when i was informed that they charge RM 15 for an hour of practicing. *as if like your electone is made of gold* What to do?? If i can't then i must lor...

So, I was thinking... hehehe.. Santa~~ can i have this

Isn't she beautiful ha~~~~~~

CAn i Can i???? Please ~~~~

I know it's a bit too much xD.... i'll just mind wonder away then ~~~~ la la la la

SHHHHH.......... Quiet please

2009-08-09T12:01:00.002+08:00

I really have NO idea what are those Indians doing outside my flat....
Can you please STOP the freking annoying music..... at least have the decency to out some thing that sounds better than " spin my head round round right now when you go down ..... ==" Feel like throwing eggs at them d..

"Annoying wei!! "

Today they are having some ritual going there.... heard that they are gonna slaughter a baby sheep * as some present to GOD i think* then they are gonna cook it with curry.... NO!!!!!!!!!!!!

And guess what, we were invited to join the lunch later..... i tell you..... before i even can eat i already faint listening to the sheep crying in pain when being cut..... FOR HEAVEN SAKE.... make it less painful for IT!!!

Or even better, just go to the market, buy some mutton meat can or not ????

Hey, i see lion dance ^^ Indian>> Chinese Lion Dance??? doesn't make sense ler.... probably doing some SATU MALAYSIA thing gua......

Now i go watch the lion dance first...

*please don't kill the sheep, please don't kill the sheep, please don't kill the sheep,...... om ma ni ped me hung, om ma ni ped me hung, om ma ni ped me hung, om ma ni ped me hung*
><

Coaching... Yeepy!!

2009-08-09T10:54:00.003+08:00

Finally i got my energy back from all the stress i was in.
Just came back from one whole day of training. WOO-- As usual, after every training I'll be all hyped up!!
This time the training was structured differently without any trainer from Singapore *i miss them so much** i still miss joey too ^^* Webster was the trainer.
One thing they shared this time that woke me up was the Ultimate success formula and all the success principles. Now i regret being so negative all the time... BUT i changed.... I'm back *muahahaha* xD at the same time i didn't have the chance to go for the camp due to the coming Management Quiz zzzz *what a waste*. Ok i should stop thinking about that... Study Study!!
Below was the Ultimate success formula that i was talking about.

So now, I'm gonna practice hard... coz i really wanna pass this test... stupid gay judge *you can't stop me.... blek ><*

*E+R=O; If i can't then i MUST; The only failure in life is not participating a 100%; I Play to WIN; Choices have consequences*

Control

2009-08-07T17:16:00.003+08:00

"Never allow anyone to rain on your parade and thus cast a pall of gloom and defeat on the entire day.
Remember that no talent, no self-denial, no brains, no character, are required to set up in the fault-finding business.
Nothing external can have any power over you unless you permit it.
Your time is too precious to be sacrificed in wasted days combating the menial forces of hate, jealously, and envy.
Guard your fragile life carefully.

Only God can shape a flower, but any foolish child can pull it to pieces."

Happy Birthday!!!

2009-08-06T12:30:00.001+08:00

Well i have took a really long break after my mid terms~~~
Didn't blog for like a month d
Any way, last month was my borthers's Birthday.... We~~~~

And we bought them a cake to remind them that they are one year older... zzz.. after a few years i might even call them uncle... muahahaha >< *Dont you think that i'm an evil sister now*
And here are some pictures xD

Hm... blueberry chocolate cake... i had two pieces *i know it's fattening but... I DONT CARE* xD

Smile ^^

Ok datuk and datin sila potong kek xD

See see even my grandparents are enjoying the cake

Happy Birthday Boys ^^

Mid terms are here>>>>

2009-07-14T16:31:00.003+08:00

Cant believe that i still have the time to blog heheh xD Well still got time while i wait for someone to go online ^^

Had a long and tiring day today. Came for class at 8 then study in the library for an hour. Now i finally find that i understand Management... it's all about "Memorizing" zzzzzzz.....

Then i went for a meeting and received some shocking news. I finally got what i wanted but it's at the wrong time. This is what you get when you do not specify your goals properly ==! When i started degree, i wished that i had lots of activity to do. But now when exams and presentations are coming in one go, I now wish that i had more time to study instead. Law of attraction eh?? Well it still works for me ^^

Oh ya.. I updated the playlist.. some songs from an anime. Quite sad but touching xD
Enjoy~~~

Anyone, Please feed my hamster. Your clicks on the screen are most appreciated hahaha

Ok study study lor... ~~~ Where is that person i'm waiting for ah??? ><

Hope is the thing with feathers

2009-07-09T17:14:00.003+08:00

Hope is the thing with feathers,
That perches in the soul,
And sings the tune-- without the words,
And never stops at all.

And the sweetest in the gale is heard,
And sore must be the storm,
That could abash the little bird
That kept so many warm.

I've heard it in the chillest land,
And on the strangest sea;
Yet,never, in extremity,
It ask a crumb of me.

Dickson

Can humans be the thing with feathers??
Who knows?? hm... lalalala......^^

The Star Festival -Tanabata

2009-07-09T08:49:00.005+08:00

During Japanses calss yesterday, we were told that the Japanese celebrate the Star Festival. So we were given small papers * really really colourful paper* *dont know which one to choose also xD* * i want all* hehehe.

Ok, then we were asked to write down our wishes and then hang it on the bamboo tree. It was decorated by the primary students there with long strips of colourfull paper *will upload it next time* so i wrote " dear God.... *not gonna tell you*" xD and our teacher told us that our wish will come true provided it does not rain on that day... And it didnt rain... Yippy!! *jumps jumps*

Well.. actually the story starts like this... *fairy tale book opens**cheng....*xD

The star festival or they call it 'tanabata' falls on July 7. According to the Chinese legend long time ago, there exists two stars namely Altair and Vega. Both were veryhard working people but they became lazy afther they fell in love with each other. The God was angry so He seperate them from seeing each other by having a milky way(天の川Amanogawa) between them *awe.. so sad*. However, the God felt sorry for them as they were being seperated forever so he decided to let them see each other once a year-July 7th, privided the wether is fine. So if it rains... then they will not be able to cross the milky way to see each other.... other's define rain on that day as "their tears" .

So... on that particular day, the Japanese would write their wisher on little papers hanging on bambo trees. If is does not rain on that day, their wishese would come true

See see>>>> So colourful ^^

Look at this... so many wish papers on a tree

Haiz... i just wish that my dreams will come true ~~~ drifting away ~~~

Friends are like Balloonzzz

2009-07-08T09:57:00.003+08:00

Life is too short to wake up with regrets.
Love the people who treat you right.
Forget about the ones who don't.
Believe everthing happens for a reason.
If it changes your life, let it.
Nobody said life would be easy.
Thet just promised it would be worth it.

Freinds are like balloons.
once you let them go, you can't get them back.
So i'm gonna tie them down to my heart so i never lose them.
He he he

So many things to do.. Which to do first??

2009-07-07T12:54:00.002+08:00

ITC assignment due this Friday d. And i have like 100 words more that the limit zzz
Management Quiz next week... I hope i'll be ready for it... ok not hope i should say i must be ready for it...^^
Have been sleeping late this few days le... Broke my own record d 3 a.m hehehe

And my grandpa's aunty is celebrating her 80th Birthday on 25th July and my grandparents have not thought of what to buy for her.. 80 years old wor... what to buy le and according to her sons they say ang paus' are not applicable...

Aiyo shouldn't continue blogging d.. study study

It ended With Jazz and Fussion

2009-07-01T09:51:00.000+08:00

You've been in my life for 15 years. I know really well that i do not have the ablity to keep you any longer. Yesterday, when i lay my hands on you... I just wanna say " OMG!! i'm really gonna miss you". I'm not sure when am i coming bcak to see you again... But i promise that i'll come back.. one day, i hope. Or even buy you back home, so that you will never leave me forever.

Had my last music class yesterday. The time when i finally step out of my class, i had this feeling of bitterness. I know it sounds crazy hahaha. Mom says it's too expensive but i thank her for supporting me for such a long time. RM350+ a month?? It's not really an expensive hobby to have.

Well any way, Yesterday my teacher taugh me a piece... Type: Fussion. To tell you the truth I have never like fussion songs but this one was really cool!! Oh ya, alhought i hate this teacher so much, i'm still gonna miss him. He's so... unique *he's gay* and the way he plays on the electone... AWESOME. My heart felt like melted chocolate when i hear him play. He's some times -- cool... in a bad way... still remember what he told me when i walk out of the calss yesterday.. He said" BYE" and he went back to the room ==!! *Thanx for that* Well of course i dont expect any thing else from a man like him.

As for now... I'm gonna Study hard first!!!
At least I still have some entertainment once in a while... squash??* For this month, next month i'll have to hunt for other things to do.... Calories!!!!** Ahem... Calories is NOT EQUAL to FAT* ha ha ha

Why am i not focusing??

2009-06-30T12:06:00.000+08:00

Haiz... seems like i'm not focusing enough in my studies..
Quiz 1 is next week and i am still not ready. By the way, assignments are all coming in..
It looks like i'm studying all the time but most of the time, nothing actually goes into my brain.
It's like reading a page then by the time you read the next page you've already forgot what's on the first page. ==
I'm really scared d @~@
I dont know what to do....
And the most important thing is that i realy really dont want to let my mom down this time.

GOD Please HELP ME!!!
I know, God will help those who help themselves. Ok, proably i'm not helping my self... zzz

Any way, no point complaining le....
Study study
**Focus on my outcome..
**If i can't then i Must..
**E+R=O

I love this Song

2009-06-28T10:30:00.000+08:00

A lovely song
Dedicated
To a wonderful person
^^
*You Are Not Alone*
by MJ

Another day has gone
I'm still all alone
How could this be
You're not here with me
You never said goodbye
Someone tell me why
Did you have to go
And leave my world so cold

Everyday I sit and ask myself
How did love slip away
Something whispers in my ear and says
That you are not alone
For I am here with you
Though you're far away
I am here to stay

But you are not alone
For I am here with you
Though we're far apart
You're always in my heart
But you are not alone

'Lone, 'lone
Why, 'lone

Just the other night
I thought I heard you cry
Asking me to come
And hold you in my arms
I can hear your prayers
Your burdens I will bear
But first I need your hand
Then forever can begin

Everyday I sit and ask myself
How did love slip away
Something whispers in my ear and says
That you are not alone
For I am here with you
Though you're far away
I am here to stay

For you are not alone
For I am here with you
Though we're far apart
You're always in my heart
For you are not alone

Whisper three words and I'll come runnin'
And girl you know that I'll be there
I'll be there

You are not alone
For I am here with you
Though you're far away
I am here to stay
For you are not alone
For I am here with you
Though we're far apart
You're always in my heart

For you are not alone
For I am here with you
Though you're far away
I am here to stay

For you are not alone
For I am here with you
Though we're far apart
You're always in my heart

For you are not alone...

You Gave up on me.. Remember??

2009-06-25T16:30:00.001+08:00

How wonderful to be studying in a kindergarden environment.. Ha ha ha. Had my first Japanese class yesterday and you know what.. all of the students there were like office people. I even met one who had failled once and now she's taking the 2nd time d. *this is what i call Geng wei* The calss was conducted like a primary school... the teacher was like " ok class.. repeat after me.. Konichiwa.." and we have to repeat what she says ><. I can even hear the people behind me whispering" ha ha ha.. like primary school ni" and yes, it relly reminds me of my primary classes ^^ *did i tell you that we are gonna sing Doreamon next week xD* *ROFL*

Any way, after calss me and my mom went to some mamak stall near my house to have dinner. When we arrived there, there were only cury chicken left T_T what to do?? Eat only lor.. Beggars are no choosers right. * see la.. more calories*

Then the worst part came, the owner of the shop came and tell us that this morning my father came to the stall. According to him my father was...... never mind.... i feel like crying d when i think about him... argh!!

And guess what, he texted me this morning to call him back =.=!!! I got N..O..T..H..I..N..G to say di la.

*Any fool can have a child but that doesn't make him a father* Quoted: Obama on Father's Day

Ice creams

2009-06-23T12:50:00.000+08:00

This morning I got nothing to do that that i decided to check my abandoned mail *got spider webs d* xD While doing so, i heard something... 'my stomach grumbling la' hehehe then, my mouth starts to water as i stroll down the web page... OMG i could not believe that. Check them out!!

mouth watering ice creams.. Yum yum

and soooo cute!!

i wouldn't wanna eat them

Look more like toys than food ^^

Ok now i think i'll get my self an ice cream ><

Yeah a new blog skin

2009-06-19T16:24:00.000+08:00

Yippy!! i got a new blog skin!!
ha ha
so sienz with the old one d and guess what? I also got a pet hamster, "it's sooooooo cute".
Well, haven't think of a name for i yet.. hm...
Any way, thanx all to Denise ^^that i manage to did all of this while she was in her ITC class..
*i know i shouldn't have done that*

Another cut on my hand T_T
BLOOD!!!!!
So painful ler... see la, shouldn't have carried so many books on the bus...zzz...

Have to do ITC assignment now( actually i dont have A idea of how to do yet )
but i'll do my best! Yeah!!
Ok la i think i better go do now. We~~~

Managment

2009-06-18T15:54:00.000+08:00

you know what? i got a lecturer that only teaches the Mike she's holding...
WTH!!! For like 3 weeks and i dont understnad a thing about Managment...
T_T how to get 'A' like that la..... Any way, she sounds like a good teacher but is just the way she teaches..
Guess what, i was like busy making notes in her class and i didn't even listen to her the hold time *I know i shouldn't have done that* Well, at least i dont waste my time looking at her and not know what is she saying xD
Well.. guess i'll just have to study my self then
Hehehe Managment's gonna be my best friend for this semester. Yeah!! ==!!

Hello

2009-06-13T13:26:00.000+08:00

Yellow....
Ok now i felt weired to Blog..
what should i write huh???
Hey!! I didn't realized that i created a blog on Father's Day...
OMG i totally forgot that today's Father's day. I should be back home celebrating but now i'm suck in KL T_T So sorry Grandpa i didnt mean to.

Any way, Happy Father's Day to all the Dad's out there.
Oh no now i'm really feeling sad....
I wanna be back home

*19 June*
Today only i know that Father's day is this week not last week ==!!